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Hey guys. I just want to state right now that I am alive. I haven't died or anything...I've just been on a life hiatus. Just...y'know, focusing on my personal life because...frankly, it's been empty for a while. I've just been spending time hanging out with people, going places, trying to get out of the little isolation bubble I've put myself in for so long.
I can happily say that the efforts have paid off. Though, I should confess my other reason I've been gone for a while. And brace yourself, this is gonna be a long one.
When I first joined on this site, it was for the hope I would have an chance to draw what I enjoyed. I did draw other things, but it was more of things people'd like to see or were important for my classes- not really things I personally enjoyed. For a while, dA gave me just that- I was able to meet people with my similar interest and enjoy art as well. I met some of my best friends though here, and still talk to a lot of them to this day.
However, I feel like the longer I've been on here, the more I felt obliged I had to draw certain things. As in, I was always thinking, 'Oh man, I can't draw another Sonic thing. That'll mean I'm stubborn to improvement. Gotta force out/squeeze out something someone else recommended.' And sometimes, it turned out to work for me, if I genuinely enjoyed the idea. Other times I would just silently agree, worrying I'd get yelled at/get forced to go about the idea, even if I knew they weren't that kind of person. I'd feel bad every time I started to fade from a fandom because I always seemed to burn out- not completely, but to where I would only draw it once a week compared to every day.
And then there's all the, 'suggestions'. "Hey Sunny, you should draw this, you should draw that, Hey Sunny, you should get to work on that thing you've clearly said at least three times you might never work on it again.' And that sort of thing stresses me out. While I hate to see things unfinished, I'd rather leave them unfinished/not worked on if I have no genuine interest in them.
Now if it were for school/money, that would be another story. I still have interest in my work if there's a reason for it so I enjoy it fairly well. In fact that's what I've been doing during my hiatus. At the same time, though, as I tried to drift from drawing things I enjoyed, I started to become more and more miserable. That might have also come from the stress of pushing myself out my comfort zone, but feeling like I have to draw something for someone else instead of what I enjoy for a site I use solely for a personal art dump is extremely distressful for me.
So with that, I avoided going on day after day. I was worried I'd be bombarded with angry messages asking why I wasn't on or why I wasn't drawing/working on their, 'suggestion' that was clearly stressing me out. After coming on here because a friend asking for my dA, I spent my time scrolling though my main page, some of you actually deeply concerned about my well being- which I do admit, find very sweet.
I suppose my break might have brought some good, however. Whenever I did have a sketchday, I've been working on my anatomy, and from playing some WoW I have some pretty good character sketches I might post up on here. And just a bunch of other ones from these past few months- but I digress.
And with that, I conclude. I really want to apologize for worrying a lot of you- hopefully since I've been starting to get some more personal art churning I can get back to how things used to be back when I started.
I can happily say that the efforts have paid off. Though, I should confess my other reason I've been gone for a while. And brace yourself, this is gonna be a long one.
When I first joined on this site, it was for the hope I would have an chance to draw what I enjoyed. I did draw other things, but it was more of things people'd like to see or were important for my classes- not really things I personally enjoyed. For a while, dA gave me just that- I was able to meet people with my similar interest and enjoy art as well. I met some of my best friends though here, and still talk to a lot of them to this day.
However, I feel like the longer I've been on here, the more I felt obliged I had to draw certain things. As in, I was always thinking, 'Oh man, I can't draw another Sonic thing. That'll mean I'm stubborn to improvement. Gotta force out/squeeze out something someone else recommended.' And sometimes, it turned out to work for me, if I genuinely enjoyed the idea. Other times I would just silently agree, worrying I'd get yelled at/get forced to go about the idea, even if I knew they weren't that kind of person. I'd feel bad every time I started to fade from a fandom because I always seemed to burn out- not completely, but to where I would only draw it once a week compared to every day.
And then there's all the, 'suggestions'. "Hey Sunny, you should draw this, you should draw that, Hey Sunny, you should get to work on that thing you've clearly said at least three times you might never work on it again.' And that sort of thing stresses me out. While I hate to see things unfinished, I'd rather leave them unfinished/not worked on if I have no genuine interest in them.
Now if it were for school/money, that would be another story. I still have interest in my work if there's a reason for it so I enjoy it fairly well. In fact that's what I've been doing during my hiatus. At the same time, though, as I tried to drift from drawing things I enjoyed, I started to become more and more miserable. That might have also come from the stress of pushing myself out my comfort zone, but feeling like I have to draw something for someone else instead of what I enjoy for a site I use solely for a personal art dump is extremely distressful for me.
So with that, I avoided going on day after day. I was worried I'd be bombarded with angry messages asking why I wasn't on or why I wasn't drawing/working on their, 'suggestion' that was clearly stressing me out. After coming on here because a friend asking for my dA, I spent my time scrolling though my main page, some of you actually deeply concerned about my well being- which I do admit, find very sweet.
I suppose my break might have brought some good, however. Whenever I did have a sketchday, I've been working on my anatomy, and from playing some WoW I have some pretty good character sketches I might post up on here. And just a bunch of other ones from these past few months- but I digress.
And with that, I conclude. I really want to apologize for worrying a lot of you- hopefully since I've been starting to get some more personal art churning I can get back to how things used to be back when I started.
New Page!
https://sonebee.deviantart.com/
I'll be posting some art pretty soon!!! Also some information on comissions since it looks like I never finished the information on here (I did on my blog on another website at least haha)
See you guys there!
Uh oh scoob.....
It's been over a year since I logged onto this site. Lot of it's been focus in college (which im doing very well in so far-- 4.0 for an entire year!) and just doing blogging as a whole, but I've decided I wanted to have a place where I just post art! ^^; I feel too disconnected from this account though (lot of its embarassment....so many outdated memes....), so I plan on just remaking! I'm gonna delete a few things that are a little pointless now, but otherwise I'm gonna keep this blog as an archive I suppose.
I have no clue if anyone still follows me, but for those that do, basically I'm trying to be active here again! I'll have the link to
CLOSED* Streaming! *CLOSED
It's Sonic's 23rd Anniversary, so today I'm gonna try and complete a picture for the event by the end of the evening!
http://www.livestream.com/sunnyjingles
*Closed* Point Commission Information!
STATUS
Currently Closed due to the need of finishing sketches--It'll be open soon though!
Rules
*No porn, please. I can work with blood, violence, and some light fluff, but nothing explicitly sexual.
*Absolutely no fetish requests of any type (aka feet, vore, bondage, etc). I personally don't feel confortable drawing those sorta things.
*No hate art (aka don't ask me to draw your fav character setting your least fav on fire, that kinda jazz.)
*If you are unsure if the commission idea you're asking for is acceptable, shoot me a note!
*Rough Sketch: 25 points
*Clean Sketch: 35 points
*Lines: 50 points
*Flat Colors: 75 p
© 2013 - 2024 Chicaaaaa
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Hey! First of all, I totally understand where you're coming from. I've been not too active here myself, really, and was mainly focusing on keeping up with what friends upload.
You should draw whatever you feel like drawing! If whatever you are drawing makes you feel uncomfortable, then leave it be. If you wanna draw Sonic, then go for it, same with everything else! Working under pressure is, in my case, not good at all for improvement. I'll feel very unsatisfied with the final result, if I'm even capable of finishing it at all. But yeah, I hope I didn't sound too awkward, I'm pretty bad at explaining things.
Ah, I'm sorry if I was one of those people that forced suggestions on you, if I did, it certainly wasn't intended to make you feel bad, and I apologize.
Anyway, I'm glad to see you around again, because I've missed you! /hugs
You should draw whatever you feel like drawing! If whatever you are drawing makes you feel uncomfortable, then leave it be. If you wanna draw Sonic, then go for it, same with everything else! Working under pressure is, in my case, not good at all for improvement. I'll feel very unsatisfied with the final result, if I'm even capable of finishing it at all. But yeah, I hope I didn't sound too awkward, I'm pretty bad at explaining things.
Ah, I'm sorry if I was one of those people that forced suggestions on you, if I did, it certainly wasn't intended to make you feel bad, and I apologize.
Anyway, I'm glad to see you around again, because I've missed you! /hugs